Days After Breakup !

I know, She is never gonna meet me. And I completely understood her feelings this time. I think the time has come ..the boy in me is dead, and the man has come.... I am really proud of myself today.. for letting her go..living her happy life.. Even though I miss her in my life.. I love her unconditionally.. but none of those matters in her perspective.. There is never gonna be a happy ending between us.. so I let it be the happy ending for her. I guess the story ends here... I really thank for giving me those beautiful memories , showing me what true love is... I dont think there will ever be a girl like Varna in my life.. And I wish there will be a boy like Karthik in her life who loves her unconditionally and wants her to be happy always with only true and pure love... With love Karthik

Hi Varna… I know how u felt when I asked you out.. I shouldn’t have done that .. I almost became a stranger to you.. When you read this please remember the old days, the happy days we spent together.. Or else just left it unread.. because this is a love letter from me..  Subject : Its been 4 years namma rendu perum pesa start panni.. ya the days after our IV trip. Enaku innum nyabagam iruku varna, after the trip, oru naal college mudinji we were standing in the bakery opp to our college. The conversation between us started with just 1 question… Ne enna pathu keta “Ena da color agitey pora ipolam nu” I just smiled and replied “Neenga agalam naanga lam aga kudatha nu”. Unaku nyabagam iruka illaya nu therila. From that day we started talking …Everyday after college you used to text me in facebook. And 1 day boys gang kuda I went to Tada .. where I almost drowned … On that night everyone called me and told me not to do like that ..romba kashtama iruku apd ipd nu lam sogama pesunan

She is busy this Sunday it seems. Or it's just a method to deny to meet me? I don't know. Whatever it is everything happens for good... But I want see her at least once.. I drove through her office today..haha what was I thinking.. Why is that I am the only one to suffer now, even though we both were in love.. Please God ..if this is what love is ... Take it away from me..

Asked Varna out, this Sunday. It's been 5 minutes, no reply from her yet... So nervous...

After asking Varna out, she agreed to catch me up with sometime... I never expected she would say this... But however...I don't think she will actually spends her time to meet me in the first place .. At least those words are more than enough... I can now live with 1 less regret in my life..     Yes, by keeping all my ego aside.. I really did ask her out. I still can't believe how I did that. To my knowledge, I am the most arrogant, egoistic person I ever knew. She bent me to my knees... I don't know I will ever fall for a girl to this extent, in my life.. In these kind of hard situations, I always take a deep breath and think, inside my mind for a minute... I always hear a voice... "Karthik, she's worth it!"

Hi Varna.. I know it's been a long time... I don't even have a clue whether it is right or not to ask you this... Last few weeks ah orey thoughts.. Ya ofcourse it's about you, else I wouldn't be texting u right now .. Do you think it's right, if we meet sometime? I don't know Varna... I just wanted to ask. I don't know what answer I am expecting from you.. It's just .. It's ok ,if you are not ready for this. I understand... I just... It's ok.. I couldn't sleep well Varna for the past  fèw weeks.. I just wanted to get rid off this from my freakin mind.. I am fucking annoying right... Ya i know... Sorry

Hi ammu, first of all I just want to apologize to you. Yeah, you know why.. Few months ago, you added me as a friend in Facebook, after all the things we went through in our life. You know "just be friends" like thing. For the past few months I was stalking on your profile, yeah I know, that's very creepy of me. And sorry for that too. I just couldn't help it ammu. I can't see you face to face, I can't meet you then and  there, who knows, meeting between us might never happen in our life again. So I was seeing you in Facebook everyday, just knowing how happy you are, and how much you enjoy your job, stuffs like that. But one point I came to realize, its not a good thing to checkout on a girl, in whose life I am not even a thing right now. I gotta let it go. Its not good for me , its not good for you either. You gotta pretty great life ahead, family , kids, job and everything... haha sorry again dear I just said that  in the wrong order, dint I? you gotta great

I should've celebrated at least a valentines day with you. I know it doesn't mean you anything, its just a another normal month in your year. But for me its kinda special. Its like .... how to say.... its like Christmas for Christians .. its like Diwali for Hindus... I would love to do some dramatic things with you. Like how they propose in movies, like how dramas portraits love. I always regret in my life , that I couldn't even spend a day with you like that. I miss you very much in my life. I love you ammu.

After saving a lot for these 3 months , I bought a bike today. And I am not happy as I want to, becoz u r not with me to share these moments,. I was hoping to go for the 1st ride with you,ammu, but I know that was never gonna happen in my life,ever. But you will be always with me. I hope you have my other half with you. With love  Karthik