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A Special Day of my Life

I know it's been a long time, since I wrote to you. I am sorry and I had my reasons too. But not even a single day has passed in my life without having you in my thoughts. And you know that too. I am writing to you today, because this would have been a much important day in our life, if things were good between us. I am at Bangkok, not on a vacation. Came here for a interview which was happening for the past 2 months. I did pretty well in the previous rounds and they flew me to Bangkok for the final 3 rounds. And I came out with flying colours and impressed all the 3 Americans who interviewed me. And they made an offer on this same day that I can't say no to. For this I have struggled for a year, preparing for interviews and stuffs. I got it today and I know I deserve it. But I feel really lonely not able to share this with you. You are the one who can make my life complete. No matter what I achieve. I really miss you, Varna. I deserved one more chance, Varna. Don't y
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Happy Birthday Varna...

Happy Birthday Varna. Sorry for those pics. Ya I know, its kinda creepy to save all your whatsapp display pictures. What to do, those days were really hard for me to move on. Those are the pics I woke up to, everyday, and I finish everyday looking at your face. That kept me moving on with my life, regardless of all those loneliness and depression. Deep down I knew, I shouldn't disturb you, that wouldn't be good for you. This is the reason I have deleted all your contacts from my phone, unfriended on facebook and even unfollowed on linkendIn. I know I shouldn't be stalking you, because 1 day I would have came to know that you were about to get married and all, through your fb or whatsapp statuses, and I wouldn't be able to handle those moments in my life, I was just scared that whether I would have disturbed you for that and all, who knows, its safer no anyway. But looking at your timelines made me feel close to you, I just wanna make sure you are doing good and ha

The Day I gotta know, everything I dreamed off, has come to its end!

After a long time I am writing to you. I don't know what's waiting in my life for me. Whenever I start thinking about my future, you were always there in it. Today I came to know, everything I thought off, everything I hoped for, is just a lie. I just feel like someone is peeling my soul off from my body.. Hmm I am just covering my pain with a fake smile all day. Today a closest friend of mine, told me that you got married. I couldn't even reply for that. Varna, I deserved to know this news from you. I loved you Varna, you know what that means? I cared about you more than myself. It was you, you, you in my life, every moment. There isn't one fucking day that I never thought about you. You just left me a scar in my heart Varna. I know you are not in my life anymore, I don't know whose gonna be there for me, I just wish for one thing now, that I have the strength to live this life alone, and die soon. I miss you. Happy married life Varna.... Good Bye..

Newyear's eve

Heard some news about some problem in MG Road on New year's eve...where she goes to work everyday... I don't even have her number now...to talk to her... I hope she is alright... Varna stay safe... With love Karthik

Wrote a letter to her!

I know, She is never gonna meet me. And I completely understood her feelings this time. I think the time has come ..the boy in me is dead, and the man has come.... I am really proud of myself today.. for letting her go..living her happy life.. Even though I miss her in my life.. I love her unconditionally.. but none of those matters in her perspective.. There is never gonna be a happy ending between us.. so I let it be the happy ending for her. I guess the story ends here... I really thank for giving me those beautiful memories , showing me what true love is... I dont think there will ever be a girl like Varna in my life.. And I wish there will be a boy like Karthik in her life who loves her unconditionally and wants her to be happy always with only true and pure love... With love Karthik

Varna.. synonym for colors.. The girl who gave me a colorful life ..

Hi Varna… I know how u felt when I asked you out.. I shouldn’t have done that .. I almost became a stranger to you.. When you read this please remember the old days, the happy days we spent together.. Or else just left it unread.. because this is a love letter from me..  Subject : Its been 4 years namma rendu perum pesa start panni.. ya the days after our IV trip. Enaku innum nyabagam iruku varna, after the trip, oru naal college mudinji we were standing in the bakery opp to our college. The conversation between us started with just 1 question… Ne enna pathu keta “Ena da color agitey pora ipolam nu” I just smiled and replied “Neenga agalam naanga lam aga kudatha nu”. Unaku nyabagam iruka illaya nu therila. From that day we started talking …Everyday after college you used to text me in facebook. And 1 day boys gang kuda I went to Tada .. where I almost drowned … On that night everyone called me and told me not to do like that ..romba kashtama iruku apd ipd nu lam sogama pesunan