Happy Birthday Varna...

Happy Birthday Varna. Sorry for those pics. Ya I know, its kinda creepy to save all your whatsapp display pictures. What to do, those days were really hard for me to move on. Those are the pics I woke up to, everyday, and I finish everyday looking at your face. That kept me moving on with my life, regardless of all those loneliness and depression. Deep down I knew, I shouldn't disturb you, that wouldn't be good for you. This is the reason I have deleted all your contacts from my phone, unfriended on facebook and even unfollowed on linkendIn. I know I shouldn't be stalking you, because 1 day I would have came to know that you were about to get married and all, through your fb or whatsapp statuses, and I wouldn't be able to handle those moments in my life, I was just scared that whether I would have disturbed you for that and all, who knows, its safer no anyway. But looking at your timelines made me feel close to you, I just wanna make sure you are doing good and happy. Trust me, we wouldn't have ended up in a 'Happily ever after' life, if we were together. Everyday I regret our fighting days, what to do d, I had this fucking male egos sculpted in my heart. I would have hurt you so much. Its better we have now led a different path, in our life. I am very happy for you nowadays, really, I mean it. You are no longer a kid, that I used to play with, you have become a woman, a responsible one, unlike me. Haha and I don't think I will become one in any near future. And again Sorry for the pics.


Hmm... Now its all over, and I think I have moved on pretty well too. Not completely, else I wouldve sent this to you directly instead of writing it here. I really feel comfortable here. My Varna still lives with me here. She was there for me, whenever I felt lonely, whenever I was depressed. I shared many things here, and I don't feel like an outsider when I am talking here.I guess I have spent most my days here than in our relationship. I don't know whether to be sad or happy about that. But the ultimate thing was I never made you hate me completely, I believe. I have failed as a partner, but I have succeeded in being a good friend of you, and I am really proud of that. Hope you are too.

And again Happy Birthday Varna.. You are the only best thing that happened in my life ever. Thanks for the memories. And again and forever, I always miss you.