Days After Breakup !

I was wondering how much mistake an artist would've done before making his/her own masterpiece. Even God may not be perfectionist, he would make mistakes before any Masterpiece. "You God, if you are listening to me, No matter what tool you use to test me, make sure of 1 thing,  One day I will be your Masterpiece..."

I am losing faith in marriage nowadays... I am afraid those last days with her made me like this...

Started 2 A.M from Pune... Caught the train and reached safely in Mumbai at 7.47 A.M. I had no idea what was that place that I had got down from train, but I was pretty sure its Mumbai. Hired a Taxi and reached my room at 8.50 A.M After a 2 hours long nap.. woke up at 10.50 A.M and I was shocked to see Varna's 2 missed call. But I had no time to call her back, since I was getting ready for my office, which starts at 11 A.M. Before starting from home to office, I wore that shirt for few minutes, which Varna used. After reaching office I started calling her. Its my birthday..yes, she wished me... and asked for a treat... She asked my card details to order food. I was ready to give her. I dont know why, I felt so comfortable giving her my card details, because I was used to that 2 years back.  I was very happy speaking with her the whole day. Her voice changed so much, I heard a matured lady, not a girl anymore. But I was never been so happy. I don't know why I forgot

No messages, no Call from her till now... its 2.00 AM .. Even I have the whole day to wait for her wish.. but the 12 o clk wish is so special. When we were in relationship, we went to temple in Chennai.. like we were a married couple. And a breakfast in a Veg Restaurant (Vasantha Bhavan). She was so angry on me on that day, because I didn't buy her a cake. But it was not a real anger,... she was like a kid asking me cake for my birthday. She also gifted me Razer Nostromo, a gaming keyboard. I like it very much. I never expected she would give me that gift. A birthday I will never forget.... Still waiting for her wish today.... Miss you Varna...!

Breakup is not the solution for all your problems... You might meet a better person than them or worse.. But the only thing you'll never get someone like them.. The only person who made you to fall in love.. The only person who laughed with you... You will never get the same kinda happiness or even hard times with others. Those will happen only with them.

  I wanna love her my whole life, I wanna marry her, I wanna laugh with her, I wanna cry just to get into her lap, I wanna go places with her, I wanna walk a lonely road holding her hands, I wanna give a piggyback when her legs gets tired by walking, I wanna cook meals for her, I wanna kiss in her forehead each and every morning, I wanna fight with her, I wanna walk in rain with her, I wanna hold her hands forever, Oh please god, I just wanna live my whole life for her, I just wanna grow old with her... No other can fill that place she had left in my life.. 

The Day I will never forget in my life... The Day, first time I shared my bed with a girl..! The feelings I don't need from any other girl.. Am not a playboy kinda person.. the only thing I shared my bed with her, because I love her more than anything in the world.. She used to tell me that she had her first kiss and sex of the lifetime with me.. If thats true it won't be easy for a girl to give up on the relationship.. Because I am struggling here so much, I still need her in my life after so much betrayal.. because the love I have for her is more stronger than anyother reason that leads me to give up... The Shirt she was wearing on that day... I still feel her in it... I love you Varna... and I miss you so much in my life.. Time 2.10P.M started crying in my office cabin itself.. The day I lost everything in my life.. My dream to love only one girl and to live the rest of my life with her... Nowadays being a playboy is very much easy, but a true love is so hard... You

Exactly 2 years before, 24th night I had a fight with her and broke my SIM card. And I don't know how to contact her, I know that I made a mistake and felt so much, and 25th morning I was waiting in Facebook for her message.Nothing came.. seriously I was very sad. Suddenly the door bell rung. My mom opened the door, a voice with very lovely voice, ya that's her. I was very shocked to see her. She came for me, only for me. Haha, then she complained my mom about me that I broken the SIM card because of yesterday's fight. My mom was very busy making coffee for her in the kitchen. The first day she kissed me in my cheeks and ran into the kitchen. I was excited so much.. A kiss from your loved ones, what else you need in this world? After that she stolen many kisses from me, when my mom was very busy in the kitchen.. The Day I will never forget in my life.. I don't know whether she has everything in her mind.. But I will never forget anything, I will love her forever... only

October 22, 2014, Morning 1 A.M, its time to celebrate Diwali... Sweets, Crackers, new Dresses... all waiting for that... But only happiness for me is Varna... There is no sign of her in my life now, with whom I shared my happiness, sorrows, smiles, laughter, tears, now am longing for that moments. At least she can celebrate it, I wish a happy diwali to her. 1 second of memory in her mind today will make my love feel alive. Love you and Happy Diwali Varna.... The Diwali I celebrated with her ... I miss those very much Varna...

After 3 months of work, tonight I am going to home, and before that I like to visit the city where I met her, I don't know whether I will meet her or not, but seeing the places where we spent some valuable time will make me feel good. I hope I will go to all places we went, without missing anything !

If I get a chance to meet her face to face, the only thing I would like to ask is, "Is there anything I can do to get you back?"

"If a girl really needs you, she would make whatever promises, but if the girl done with you, she would break whatever promises she made."                         - My life

We once promised , whatever happens in our life we will be together. I am still keeping that promise, because every moment I had with her was true love. I never do anything to spoil those moments. If I do ,there will be nothing called true love ever, which I dreamed of my whole life.

I don't know why she did this. Selected my profile and clicked the Trash Icon, this is what she did. I don't know why I love her so much, even though am not being treated like a friend. There were some time when I thought of moving on. But when I think about the moments that I had with her, makes me to fight one more time. Moving on from a relationship is being so easy for a girl. But for me each and every second of my life reminds me of her. But you can ask why I am like this. Its very simple , a girl can be loved truly by only 1 boy in her life, and I like to be that boy, and always will be !

In Durga Temple If I am not wrong, Varna is "Kanni" Rasi (Virgo Sign in English) with "Hastham" as a star. No matter what, this is one big day in my life. I will always love her, even she forgets me.

I still remember that day. Sept 26, 2012 a pleasant evening. We are just friends before 8 P.M. And she started the conversation slowly, and she said those golden words finally "I can't control hereafter Karthik, yes I am in love with you !" Everything happened very fast in our life. Love, Breakup, everything..  All couples out there, if you read this, please understand, Breakup is not the only solution for your problems. Is your love not worth fighting for? You can give 1000 reasons for a breakup, but think about the moments when you laughed together, when you hung out. You are asking his/her opinion when you propose your love, but no one cares when it comes to a breakup. You can't just leave like that, they are the ones who will be experiencing a lot of pain all because they love you, more than you did. But the sad part is those things happened to me. She came into my life in a hurry, and left in the same way. If I had a chance to go back 2 years, I would

Tomorrow Sept 26, an important day in my life.. I can't forget her, and also I couldn't be with her again in my life. The only thing I can do is to remember every beautiful and marvelous moments that I had with her few years before. I miss her very much in my life.. 

Its been 2 years since Varna left me. Ya, Varna ! That's her name. My love, my life, everything. December 17 2012, the day she took the first step away from me. The promises we made, the love we had, everything has been forgotten that day. I couldn't blame her for everything. May be I did something which made our life a tragedy. 2 years before we stayed up all night till 5 A.M talking, pampering each other, but today I don't even have the strength to say a "Hi". I hope this blog will be with me whenever I am alone, and it will be a support to my heart forever.