Days After Breakup !

Heavy rain these days in chennai, especially Velacherry(Varna's home) almost flooded and boats are being used to evacuate people in those areas. I hope varna's family is safe and not been in trouble. I was about to text her today to ask about her parents, and then I realized I am no more in her life.. Hmm... So here I am.. tellin this to you.. :'(

On the day of diwali, you are my only thought, and you know why. I really miss the awesome time I spent with you 3 years before. Remember? I worn a dhoti and you were looking gorgeous in a Churidhar, and we went to one of our friend's home to share sweets. (With a smiling face) We were looking like a married couple. I miss those moments dear. I miss you. And Happy Diwali.  With love ~Karthik

Its been a long time, anyways, I don't want to disturb her anymore.. Even today, I am not gonna wish her over phone.. So no more 'Karthik' in her life.. I troubled her more because of dumping me.. Now I am realizing that, the mistakes were all mine.. I would've let her go, by the moment she decided that I am not suitable for her life.. I think, the relationship we had is not worth fighting for...  Love is a hanging bridge and the hearts are the pillars of it. If one heart broken up, there is no meaning, in other to hold on to that bridge. There was a time, which I thought, every couple in this world will be jealous of us, but now, I am the one who is getting jealous of every old couple I see in Malls and Restaurants. After Varna left me.. I lost all my hope in life about True love, is that even exists? But 1 thing I am sure about.. Live the life with a true love, or its way more better to stay alone. Happy Birthday Varna.. whatever happens I will be your well wi

I woke up at 9.30 AM , and I saw 2 missed calls from Varna in Whatsapp. I was so excited, I was very happy... and at once I thought everything gonna be normal again in my life. I texted her ... and I got a single reply "Sorry,  by Mistake". It was like building a home for days and nights, and the earthquake destroys it in a minute. It was like God saying... "You haven't had enough, feel this pain too".. Of all this... I still miss her ... I couldn't think of any one else in her place. Waiting for the end of my life... Atleast God please make it soon...

Now I understood, why I cant forget you....

She forgot me... I am just a stranger to her now, She doesn't care about me anymore, But I still don't know... Why I still missing her so much in my life...

I wish all couples in the world... a very Happy Valentines day.. But its not about this one day... Its about the whole year.. If you love one truly... you would treat them daily, as it was a valentine day. I don't know whether I will be with her in future or not. But she is the only girl, I love to spend my life with. But I am not lucky enough to have her in my life. Its been 3 years, but I never got a chance celebrating Valentine's day with her. I dreamed my whole life with her. I couldn't able to think my life with others. But its ok, I have nothing to lose anymore in my life. I miss her... I miss her very much...

Jan 2 ,         If everything got over with her, if she forgets me completely, why is she often comes in my dream. Ya... I know it cant be started once again like nothing happened before. We had many fights which lasts more than the day we loved each other. I know its normal in a relationship to have fights for silly reasons. But I don't know why she cant understand, she just chosen breaking up , just like that. I like to wish her a Happy new year  yesterday... there are many things happened in my life that I want to share with her... Laugh with her.. But the only thing is I don't even know where to start. She just went far away from me... I still miss her in my life....!