Days After Breakup !

I was wondering how much mistake an artist would've done before making his/her own masterpiece. Even God may not be perfectionist, he would make mistakes before any Masterpiece. "You God, if you are listening to me, No matter what tool you use to test me, make sure of 1 thing,  One day I will be your Masterpiece..."

I am losing faith in marriage nowadays... I am afraid those last days with her made me like this...

Started 2 A.M from Pune... Caught the train and reached safely in Mumbai at 7.47 A.M. I had no idea what was that place that I had got down from train, but I was pretty sure its Mumbai. Hired a Taxi and reached my room at 8.50 A.M After a 2 hours long nap.. woke up at 10.50 A.M and I was shocked to see Varna's 2 missed call. But I had no time to call her back, since I was getting ready for my office, which starts at 11 A.M. Before starting from home to office, I wore that shirt for few minutes, which Varna used. After reaching office I started calling her. Its my birthday..yes, she wished me... and asked for a treat... She asked my card details to order food. I was ready to give her. I dont know why, I felt so comfortable giving her my card details, because I was used to that 2 years back.  I was very happy speaking with her the whole day. Her voice changed so much, I heard a matured lady, not a girl anymore. But I was never been so happy. I don't know why I forgot

No messages, no Call from her till now... its 2.00 AM .. Even I have the whole day to wait for her wish.. but the 12 o clk wish is so special. When we were in relationship, we went to temple in Chennai.. like we were a married couple. And a breakfast in a Veg Restaurant (Vasantha Bhavan). She was so angry on me on that day, because I didn't buy her a cake. But it was not a real anger,... she was like a kid asking me cake for my birthday. She also gifted me Razer Nostromo, a gaming keyboard. I like it very much. I never expected she would give me that gift. A birthday I will never forget.... Still waiting for her wish today.... Miss you Varna...!

Breakup is not the solution for all your problems... You might meet a better person than them or worse.. But the only thing you'll never get someone like them.. The only person who made you to fall in love.. The only person who laughed with you... You will never get the same kinda happiness or even hard times with others. Those will happen only with them.

  I wanna love her my whole life, I wanna marry her, I wanna laugh with her, I wanna cry just to get into her lap, I wanna go places with her, I wanna walk a lonely road holding her hands, I wanna give a piggyback when her legs gets tired by walking, I wanna cook meals for her, I wanna kiss in her forehead each and every morning, I wanna fight with her, I wanna walk in rain with her, I wanna hold her hands forever, Oh please god, I just wanna live my whole life for her, I just wanna grow old with her... No other can fill that place she had left in my life..